One of the Saddest Days of My Life

"The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart....." Psalm 34:18

"I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you." John 14:18

June 2, 2008 started out like many days. It was one of my scheduled days to work so I took Shane to Sharon's house. He was asleep as usual so I put him in the bed with Kelsey and chatted with mom for a few minutes. As usual, my mother chatted with me up until the time we were walking out the door. She called and left a message around 10:00 a.m. letting me know that her doctor's appointment that was scheduled for that day was actually for Tuesday. I called her back and spoke briefly with her to confirm that I would be off work the following day so she would be able to go to her appointment without taking Shane and Nicholas or leaving them with Susie. I had no idea that this would be the last conversation that I would have with my mother.

Around 1:00 p.m, Sharon came to my office to tell me that Susie had called and that mom was having an asthma attack and the rescue squad had been called. Mom has had asthma for years and never had to be rushed to the hospital before so I figured it would a trip in to the ER to get her breathing regulated and we would bring her home that evening.

Oh, how wrong I was. By 1:45 p.m., Jeremy called to tell me to come on home as Sharon and I were waiting at the hospital to be at the ER when she arrived. I knew what he was telling me and my heart broke. A colleague from work was kind enough to drive us home. My mother, Patricia "Pat" Hall, at the age of 65, went home to be with the Lord yesterday.

If I had only known what the day would bring, I would have stopped and spent more time chatting with her. I would have told her how much I loved and appreciated her. I don't know how to live my life without my mother as she has always been there for me and my children. I have to trust in the Lord as I know in His strength, I will get through this and learn to live the rest of my life on this earth without my mother. I have to rejoice in the fact that I will see her one day again in Heaven.